weeping willow wont you wallow any louder..

After much delay im here again. Too much has gone on but i learned dealing with death is the hardest thing. Like you always here about it but when it hits your web its devestating 'specially since it was someone very close to me, Alicia Ray my closest cousin. I said "goodbye" a few sundays ago but i can never really say a complete goodbye though, thats just damn near impossible. acceptance is the hardest bullet to bite.
Postive note im a junior now, the 4th marked that. 7th, 1 yr 8 months anniversary. I'm almost out im actually a little worried, they prepare you in school just to dump you off and leave you scared of the future. ehh im probably overthinking this i'll be fine...13th grade after 12th is how i have to look at it. haha Lately ive dived back into my pool of good vibes again and out came a new outlook on this year that i can stick to i mean really stick to.
im an artist, so back to the art i go. Im still searching for my muse though.