"Goodbye 17,

you were definitely an experience."

- chanell s.

au revoir seventeen:

in this year you've taught me strife, grief, detachment, frivolity, coldness, caprice, and consequence.

I'd say you allowed me to peer into a different realm of myself that I never knew existed nor want to

revisit. My adolence has been nothing less than experiential, debauched with unprecedented fun, and

now I enter a new chapter of my life.I'm ready to embrace positivity and face unconventionality with

a leveled head. The learning experience is, as always, the hardest part.

Now here comes real living...

nostalgia.

if only i could some how stop running in all directions and find my true destination. As fickle as it may seem, I can't find what is what anymore. Nostalgia, the mental curse, if only I could forget...everything. I find myself diving into old memories, losing sleep as my mind races, I yearn for what it is I chose to abandon. It's like all that I do just reminds me of what I let go. I'm no manic depressive by no means, but sometimes memories stay embedded...deep. I see why some people resort to substance abuse just to forget, as a means of coping with the intangible elations of thought. I often entertain the thought of solipsism quite frequently, what if I could control all of this? To master one's mind is ultimate wisdom, to learn to channel heightened emotions. I'll get by eventually, it's just really funny how the past always seems to creep up and tear a new wound. I don't know whether to confront this dilemma or simply walk away from it. ha, suppressed thoughts are a bitch on the weekends.

abre los ojos

VANILLA SKY. This is a revolution of the mind...good choice, the lucid dream. "what is any life without the pursuit of a dream?" this film evokes the power of the subconscious mind in such fine emporiums of bewilderment. questioning reality, opening your eyes, entertain the thought of solipsism, ontology, and metaphysics for a change.

being a fan of psychological thrillers this is an all time fav, hands down.

penelope and cruise=wonderful.

GLOBAL ALTRUISIM

RAISING A BIT OF AWARENESS ON SOME GLOBAL ISSUES. BE SELFLESS THIS YEAR AND TAKE A LOOK AWAY FROM THE MIRROR FOR A CHANGE. THERE ARE COUNTRIES IN WHICH GENOCIDE RUNS RAPID, AND PLACES WHERE NATURAL DISASTER HAS CHANGED THEIR WHOLE WAY OF LIFE. THESE ARE JUST A FEW BUT: SAVE DARFUR AND SAVE HAITI<3ACT NOW

2010!

HEY,LETS DO IT BIG<3

the things you...take from me..

moleskin.

"work in progress"